Thursday, August 06, 2009

An imposed rest!

*sigh*

An unexpected turn of events, since this morning. I was rushing out the door to drop R to the station and I missed a step on the garage stairs and landed flat on the ground, while twisting both my ankles in the process. A doctor's visit and an x-ray an hour later, and the results are a sprain in the right ankle and a tibial fracture in the left ankle.

An orthopedic visit 3 hours later, and the fracture is confirmed and the sprain is pronounced severe. They put the left ankle in a cast and the right ankle in wrapping and a splint. With 2 weeks of strict rest and care, the sprain will likely heal itself. As for the cast, I need to have it on for 6 weeks. And that's how things stand right now.

I cannot begin to describe the challenges this brings forth in our life right now. R is running some major deadlines at work. Winkie's summer camp just go over and he has 2 and 1/2 weeks to go before school begins, which is probably a good thing in itself. Thambi has sensed the unusual change of pace in our lives and reacts to it with a dip in his spirits. I oscillate between keeping a solid, cheerful front, to giving in to the weakness of the pain and the helpless tears, at how we shall cope together for the next several weeks.

However, where a door closes, a window, as always has opened up. Several windows in fact, and many many small small panes, through which the brightest of light shines through to dispel the gloom of the darkest hours. What a lucky thing it is that it happened while R was still home with us. How awfully lucky that Thambi whom I was holding when I fell, escaped from the fall unhurt, because I had somehow managed to hold onto him in the process, until I reached the ground. How lucky it is that we have an angel of a babysitter and we could just drop off both the boys there for the day and have her care for them, food and all. How cool was it that I had managed to pack R some idli upma for his lunch and that in turn became our breakfast in the car, while we headed to the hospital. How wonderful and personal was my doctor and all the nurses and technicians I encountered.

There was a point of time when I was on the x-ray table and from inside sprang a prayer, waiting to find utterance from my lips....Please God, let it not be a fracture! Somehow, I couldn't bring myself to ask it. It was just way more comforting to submit and say...Your will, not mine.

How fortunate that I had the love of such a wonderful family....my parents, my in-laws, my siblings, my bro and sis-in-law, my lovely friends, my cousins! Just talking to each and every one of them and hearing the concern in their voices was balm to my wounded spirit. How convenient that we had leftover pizza which we could now heat up to have some lunch and keep our strength up. How completely lovely was the orthopedic doctor who saw me and empathised with my having 2 boys to keep up with. And the nurse who came to do my cast...oh! she had the most comforting hands that soothed the pain in my ankles as she bandaged it. R was patience and love personified, his bleary eyes giving away the acute exhaustion within, but never letting it get the better of him when it came to taking charge of things.

I know I shall be eternally thankful to my cousin in St. Louis who promised to come this very weekend to stay with me for the first crucial week, thereby lifting a heavy load off our minds. And thankful am I that my mother has a 10 year visa and is prepared to come at a moment's notice the instant we feel this is way beyond us. What an unexpected surprise and delight it was to see my neighbour from a few houses away (Roy's parents) and A & A show up without notice to check in on me. I cannot feel more loved than I am now. He has sent a lot of people and blessings my way all day. Another dear friend who lives just a block away took stock of the situation and bought us some quick groceries, despite her own imperfect health...some bread for our breakfast, some gatorade for energy and some bananas for a quick pick me up snack. Kind kind kind!!!

But surrounded as I am by these immeasurable blessings, my spirits do continue to dip every once a while, when faced with the prospect of using the crutches and going to the bathroom. The pain is sheer agony, and even more from the sprained ankle which I am now forced to put some pressure on, than from the unused left one. From time to time, I feel sucked into the worry vortex of contemplating life for the next 6 weeks and how I shall pull through it. R says to just stay firmly lodged in the present...thinking only about what I have to do for the next minute and not more than that. And I respond to his words because they are the lifeline thrown to me from the divine shores, not too far away. From time to time, I visualise God's beautiful presence, like He is in the same room with me, looking upon me, His hands raised in constant benediction, a smile forever etched in His face and I take heart. I know He deems it is time, to put all the spiritual theory I have surrounded myself with to the test, in the form of this intense practicals. Its time to rid myself of knowledge and acquire wisdom through action. So far, I am proud to say that I have done myself and Him proud. Courage under difficulty, and grace under pressure is possible and they are not just words I share with those that ask of it from me. I am now living my words and seeing the tangible effect it has on my aura and my strength.

My father in law tells me that this is my period of imposed rest. A time to pause from all that I have done and rushed to do, to just being still and silent. To regain, to recoup, to rest. I suppose that is it. For I would not have done it any other way. Once again, He has proved that phrase...ask and ye shall receive. Only, I forgot to add all the extra clauses to my request which may have ensured me a less trying time of it. :) Still.....it is time to take Him up on it with a smile and some cheer, and prove to him the strength of my mettle, for which He has prepared me for all this while....

Wish me love and luck for the next 6 weeks, my friends.....for I now face the Master, at His own game! :)

67 comments:

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

huge huge hugs! i wish I could (heck with teh clauses!!) use a teleporter device right now - I would so love to have been right there and provided some kind of support. but i'm so happy to see you're surrounded by love.
you will get through it, T. one hour, one day, one week at a time. think of all the physical pains you've gone thru - labor, postpartum, you've got thru all that with a smile and your chin up. & whats more, the best boys have your back.
so breathe in, let the reins go, and send away all those thoughts...maybe into a book?? ;)

ps: are you allowed painkillers? are they helping any?
-kodi's mom

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Awwww - poor you. Take care & hope everything works out.
Get well soon!


--Smitha

Mommy dearest said... Best Blogger Tips

You said, it does sound like sheer agony, more than our pain, the pain you have to put the spouse, children, the house, the task list to !!. I am sympathize with you lady. Wish you a speedy recovery - Prayers Tammy

choxbox said... Best Blogger Tips

sounds terrible T. phew.
these things probably happen to help in putting things in perspective and to make us realize that there are SO many things we take for granted in the rush of our everyday lives - being perfectly mobile being one of them.

but hey hang in there.

Sri said... Best Blogger Tips

Ohh thats so sad!

Please take care..hoping and praying for your speedy recovery..

SUR NOTES said... Best Blogger Tips

oh dear... both ankles!!!

Keep your good cheer and spirit. Do take that complete bed rest- ankles give trouble later in life if not looked after now!

And let the rest of the world take over for a while- your boys will be fine, i am sure.

happyfeetnme said... Best Blogger Tips

((hugs))

Yep, God's way of making you rest. Forcefully, coz you wont any other way.

But then, he also has his way of taking care. I'm sure he'll provide for you. Like your cousin coming over. Like neighbours and friends pitching in.

Just let go and relax. easier said than done, eh? :)

play board games with the kids. Color with them. Blog some more. Chill out. Make the most of this time. When else will you ever get 6 weeks off house work and running after kids? ;-)

Rohini said... Best Blogger Tips

Ouch! Both ankles??!

Hope the weeks of recuperation fly by and you are up and running soon

Mamma mia! Me a mamma? said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh Tarini!! You truly are grace under pressure, courage under fire, personified!

I should always take a leaf out of your book when faced with testing times.

I wish you only more love and a very quick recovery. Rest, relax and reach out to those in front of you. Always remember that you are not alone :) There are positive thoughts and prayers working their way towards you even from distant shores.

R's Mom said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh my God! Poor you, I can well imagine the agony. Please take care and I loved the way you saw positives in all this! God be with you and may you have lovely time in your imposed rest :)

Diyakhi said... Best Blogger Tips

Ohh, Tharini, what a shock to read this !!My heart goes out to u.Wish I was closer.But I do agree with the imposed rest!!You are so giving, Tharini, and now it is time to receive.Time for others to help you.And all your friends are there for you , so atleast we can help your sunken spirits . It is very difficult, when u feel u cannot do anything at all. But don't despair, just think u are taking that much needed vacation.I hope the pain goes away soon.Hope all goes well and u get better soon. Take care. will call u soon.BIIIIg hugs to u.

Deepa said... Best Blogger Tips

Oops, did not in the least xpect this Tharini....do not worry, this too shall pass.....yes, it surely is His way of resting you!

Take care.....sending loadsa "get well soon" wishes your way!!

Deepa

Suchismita said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi, Chanced upon this space via the name Tharini. beautiful name.As a mom, i would take any kind of rest i got and i think the enforced one is probably what moms get. So do not fret. easier said than done, i know.

You seem good at counting your blessings, so i am sure you'll find many more in the next few weeks, while resting. Get well soon. all the best.

manisha said... Best Blogger Tips

you know what tharini - you may just look back six weeks from now and say 'thanks' to HIM for your accident.

i think you'll discover so much love, kindness and joy in your little boys too, as they take care of mummy. maybe this time was meant for that.

a big hug to you. it will only get better.

arundati said... Best Blogger Tips

omg! you are surrounded by love girl... although it wont make the situation easy, it will make it easier to bear. good luck!! and hugs!

Sunita said... Best Blogger Tips

Take care and I hope this gives you the much needed rest.

The Inquisitive Akka said... Best Blogger Tips

Aiyo, take care da!!!!!!!!!!!Get well soon! You can think of so many more things to blog about now!:)I am glad you have so many people to help out, that's a blessing!

AA_Mom said... Best Blogger Tips

Uh Oh! Tharini, very sorry to hear this, My Sister had to go thru a very critically broken leg and I can relate to the pain you mention.

Now wonder the wise say, be careful what you wish for. I know I have sometimes wished for seemingly simple things and have had to pay heavy price (unknown at that time) just to have the exact thihng that I wished for in life. Sigh!.

Get well soon and you have lots of positive energy coming your family's way which will help you get over these 6 weeks.

upsilamba said... Best Blogger Tips

Hugs, T.
I know it is easy to ask you to take it easy.
My love, prayers and thoughts for you, dear T.

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi Tharini,

Wish I could be of any help....

You have such lovely, understanding kids and husband - you will get through all with their help and most of all Swami's support...

Take care....I hope you didnt mind me calling you...


Sujatha Ramesh

Its our space said... Best Blogger Tips

Hugs,T. Hang in there...may be its God's way to test your tolerance..wish there was a way I could help. Take care.

AP said... Best Blogger Tips

Take care. This too shall pass. Wish you speedy recovery.

Vidhur said... Best Blogger Tips

Dear Tharini,
Get well soon! Your spiritual strength , will see you and your family through this tough time. You guys are going to emerge a family more connected and bonded, because of this. Keep you spirits up and everything WILL work out.

Girl Next Door (gnd) said... Best Blogger Tips

omg! both ankles? that's awful! How things change in a split second!?
Am so glad for all the love and support you have on your side...and as always it amazing how you take a positive spin on things :)
Hope the six weeks fly by fast and you recover well!

Sands said... Best Blogger Tips

Here's wishing you a speedy recovery. Am sure it will all fall in place just like it always does :)

Timepass said... Best Blogger Tips

Hats off Tharini..Even with ur painful injury you have managed to blog..Wishing you a speedy recovery

alagu said... Best Blogger Tips

Tharini, I just stopped by your blog and was pretty upset to read this! I hope you are recuperating well now. Please remember that you have all our good vibes and prayers.This too shall pass. - alagu

Tharini said... Best Blogger Tips

You guys are the very best!! Thanks so much for all teh words, thoughts, concern and vibes. I have been drinking up each word like a tonic. Thank you, thank you, thank you! :))

Balaji D said... Best Blogger Tips

You poor thing. Here is wishing you a speedy recovery and a kiss from Sreenidhi. Take care.

Madhuri said... Best Blogger Tips

Tharini, sending a lot positive wishes and prayers for a very speedy recovery..! Everything will come back to normal before you know.. R is absolutely right about staying in the moment and not thinking ahead.. Stay strong and please take care of yourself! This too shall pass and pass quickly!

Madhuri

Cantaloupes.Amma (CA) said... Best Blogger Tips

Sure its hard T ... but pls take it easy. You have such a lovely family to take care of you ...
Here is wishing you a very speedy recovery !

OmSai said... Best Blogger Tips

Tharini..Wish you a very speedy reovery...I visit your blog every single day looking for new posts and thoroughly thoroughly enjoy reading them. Your words give me enough strength for all the pressures or issues i handle daily...I feel very sorry reading your post today...You will be in my prayers and you will come out with flying colors. All the Best

sainila said... Best Blogger Tips

Hugs hugs more hugs and more love. Here are Swami's words:


"My biggest cure for those who are sick,
Is the love I pour on them.
This love is the most powerful antidote.
It heals and it soothes.
It strengthens your will power to face it.
It even cures instantaneously
Due to your faith in
My love for you."

So your faith in Him and His Love for you will make this 6 weeks go in 6 seconds.

Its amazing that you have tried to find all positive things amidst this tough time too! LEsson to be learnt from you!

Again all my positive vibes on your way....

Bhavani said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi Tharini,

Felt very sad to hear about the fracture! :( Wishing you a speedy recovery!! Will remember you in our prayers.

Take care,
Bhavani

Shachi said... Best Blogger Tips

Hiya - first time here:) have only read 2-3 posts on ur blog and u write well :)

Here's wishing u a supersonic fast recovery - it is in adversity that we find strength and courage to move on....and treat this as a blessing in disguise....you never know what will unfold next!

Hugz n Love,
Shachi

noon said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi Tara

I just read this...I don't want to sound too sorry though I am really sorry that you have to go through this...you are taking this in the best possible way and I am glad to see that. I feel for you and wish you did not have to go through this. It is so awful really to go through imposed rest when you have two boys to take care of and a husband who has tons of official work to take care of...but I am glad that you have that moral support offered to you by every one and the tangible support and strength that comes from knowing your mother will be here if you need her...I always shudder to think what if I were to be sick even for a few days...all friends around have two kids and my mother really cannot cope at all managing the house now...gosh it would be pure hell. In that sense, I was heartened to know that you have that solid support should you need it. In the midst of tough times, really lot of things to be thankful for. You will get through it! If you need tips to get through the six weeks in a cast, talk to KB! :)

sole said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi Tara,

Ouch...I can imagine the pain you must be going through! Take care, but you know what God has a way of making people slow down and unfortunately for you I suppose this is the way he's framed it for you! He possibly couldn't figure any other better way since you always find a way to work things out. This way you def get the rest required! Take it easy and don't push yourself coz the healing will take much longer then! At the risk of sounding evil, God I suppose thought it was the best time this could happen, before school began and the routine got even more crazy!
So glad that you are surrounded by people to help you! You are truly blessed!

take care and hugs!

Kosalai said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi Tharini,

I am a regular reader of your blog. Got to know you through saffron tree.Never have commented before though(just being lazy, i know its bad). Will pray for your speedy recovery. I hope and wish you keep your spirits up (as you always do) and get well soon.

-Kosalai.

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Usually a lurker, had to comment - sorry to hear about both ankles being hurt. Here's to them healing really fast.

One thing I didn't see mentioned in the comments: you mention terrible discomfort in using the bathroom - might I suggest adult diapers (Depends)? Yes, it sounds like overkill, but get over heavy ground as lightly as you can - use the bathroom only for the large job. No need to stress the sprained ankle even more. You can also rent a wheelchair for a week or two - or if you have a sturdy office chair, use that to wheel yourself around in the house.

M

VJ said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh dear!!! I guess I am reading this very late. Don't much have any wiser words to say ( after reading all the comments )
take care and stay positive!!!

dipali said... Best Blogger Tips

What a wonderful person you are, Tharini- accepting these injuries as a gift! God bless you and your family, and may you continue to inspire us with your approach to life.
Heal well, and in God's own time:)

A journey called Life said... Best Blogger Tips

ohh ohh.. im so sorry this had to happen.. but then i really appreciate ur spirit, looking at all the windows that opened up..will include you in my prayers for a speedy recovery..hugs

writerzblock said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, poor girl! Completely understand your situation...I had a ligament tear years ago and was forced to stay at home for a whole week. But the good thing is: These things are curable. And in no time at all, you will be back to your usual self :-) You take care...watch loads of DVDs and eat some ice-cream with the boys, and be happy. And read 'What Katy Did' ;-)

MIM said... Best Blogger Tips

i think you should call in your mum...
just to lift off the strain off everyone's minds....

and the kids will be thrilled to bits when they hear that, am sure.
take care Tharini

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

hi tharini,

take care. Time to read all the books in your "To read wishlist". With two boys and busy life here these kind things bound to happen and you are having a practice run to cope with such situation.

You will emerge stronger than before and you will defnitely see how independant your boys can be and how much they can manage by themselves without you. Speaking from my own childhood experience.

one more item to add to your thankful list is that we live in a country where medical help arrives in matter of minutes after calling 911. This again comes from very recent personal experience (day before yesterday) when the guy from alarm company tested the emergency service and the emergency team was at our door in matter of minutes. My MIL (who has 90% hearing loss who adamantly refuses to wear hearing aid) happily went and opened the door to welcome emergency team and set up the alarm again (thank god the police never arrived with guns drawn).

When I had to explain this to my MIL (read as shouting in my MIL's ear) I involuntarily setup my inhouse alarm(aka my 15 month old son) who refused to shut down after 30 minutes. None of usual codes worked on him : ). He is so used to our soft spoken voices and got petrified seeing my high pitched conversation.

One overworked backend technician at the alarm company decided to bring to fun to our household that day. I suppose he was our fun messenger from god .

CS

GettingThereNow said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh no!! I haven't been by your blog in a long time and now when I do drop by I get such terrible news :( Here is hoping you recover faster than fast and sending you some healing vibes. Wish I lived closer to be of some help. Take care.

Vima said... Best Blogger Tips

Tharini,sending lot of positive wishes and prayers for a speedy recovery......Take care.

Vidhya

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Things will get better and very soon the pain will subside and you will feel comfortable moving around in the cast. This is what I got to know after handling a 4 year old with a facture (leg). My best wishes for your speedy recovery. It will be hard but soon you will figure it out. Hats off to you for being so positive, that is something I really need to learn from you. I agree with R, take one day at a time.

AI

Anupama said... Best Blogger Tips

Hi tarini
.can totally relate to your situation..one year ago i slipped on my son's toy and had a multiple fracture on my ankle..yes little window panes do open up and bring in small but bright beams of sunlight in such moments..you just have to look in the right direction with a positive attitude. Get well soon!!!
BTW has your doc asked you to do a bone density test..just to rule out osteoporosis..stock up on calcium

Rekha said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh.. thats sad to know. Take good care of yourself and rest well. Wish you a speedy recovery!!!

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh....sad to hear abt it.
take care tharini...wish u a speedy recovery....with your wonderful family members you can come up like a phoenix!
ahtinav

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

take care Tharini! Use this imposed rest period to catch up on your reading...and writing! :-)
best..

gypsy

Poppy said... Best Blogger Tips

Sending in a lot of prayers your way T. It is hard but you in your own inimitable way have chosen to see the bright spots. Hope the guys back you up and I hope all of you get closer and happier because of this incident..

Sue said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh honey, it sounds horrible. All the best. Maybe you can catch up on your craftwork and reading?

Hugs.

Sumana said... Best Blogger Tips

Seeing all the positives and thinking you are blessed, what a great attitude. I think that will lead you out of it. Happy speedy recovery.

Neera said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh God ..so sorry to hear this Tharini! I so totally understand what it must be like for u - the worries, the boys, the house et al. As much as I pray for the children's good health, I pray doubly hard for mine because at this point with 2 young children, I get stressed even at the thought of falling sick.
However I am so glad u r taking it so well. Its very heartening to see u count ur blessings in the form of help - tangible, through words and all the different ways that u mention. Do have a very very speedy recovery Tharini. Sending u lots of love and warmth. And God is there to take care of everything right, so don't worry too much! Love to the kids too.

Kshitija said... Best Blogger Tips

T, sorry to hear! Hope you feel better soon. Sending your way lots of hugs and TLC.

poonamtalkies said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh God! I am so sorry for the recent events. Hope you are feeling better now.
You will sure get through it. The family and friends will step up and help you through.

Do let me know if I could help in any way. I stay abt 2 hrs from Chicago. :)

In the meanwhile, have you tried Amazon.com groceries and gourmet food? :)

Oh and get well soon!

Anonymous said... Best Blogger Tips

Dear T Di,

This is a Deja-Vu feeling, you know! I just recovered from a fracture on my right ankle and i had to live through 3 weeks of Recuperation. Well, it was trouble initially. But, on the flip side, I used the 'Imposed Rest' to get back to my favorite books, movies and songs. Good times! Now that i am back the grind, i can only wish you a Super-Speedy recovery! Please take care!

I am sure you're being caressed and prayed for! I'd pray for you as well!

Love
S

Sujatha said... Best Blogger Tips

Get Well Soon Tharini!
-Sujatha

asaaan said... Best Blogger Tips

Get well soon Tharini. I am that you are on the road to recovery.

Tharini said... Best Blogger Tips

Richa...your last line...so true!! :)

Yes Ro..both ankles. And you can now add sciatica to the list. :(

Manisha : I think I am already thanking Him. Thank you. :)

Sujatha : It was really sweet of you to call me right away. I was really touched. Call me anytime. :)

OmSai : Welcome to the comments space. Thanks for writing to me now. :)

Nila : Thank so much for these potent words from Swami. I loved them! I had read them from the Divine Messages series on the yahoogroup too. So comfroting.

Welcome to the blog Shachi. Thanks for writing and for your wishes. :)

Kosalai : Happy to make this connection with you thru this post. :)

M: Its funny you should mention it...but the office chair I bought for R for his birthday last, is what is helping me now take a small trip around the ground floor whenever I get sick of the sofa. :)

Pal : What Katy did huh? ha ha. :) I think I just might, right after I finish Ponniyan Selvan. :D

CS : That was an entertaining story! Made me smile!

Anupama : Thanks for the tip about the bone density test. I will talk to my doc about it during my follow up next week. Thanks so much.

Dear sweet Poppy...you are sending me prayers, and you call yourself an athiest??!!! It is just not possible that you are one. Its hereby proved. :)

Sue : Abso. Reading, writing and some embroidery are in the mental cards. :)

Poonam : How sweet of you to offer. :) Do pay me a visit if you come hereabouts. :)

S : Glad to hear that you are over with your 3 weeks of recuperation. How are you doing now? Back to full form? Does it take long to rehabilitate? That's something I think about sometimes.

IBH said... Best Blogger Tips

:( i just read this and hugs gal! sending you prayers and positive vibes your way!

A said... Best Blogger Tips

My prayers are with you. Take good care of yourself and don't worry too much. Wishing you a very speedy recovery,
AW

Mama - Mia said... Best Blogger Tips

get well soon, Tharini. and may these blessing keep getting showered on you...


hugs

Mystic Margarita said... Best Blogger Tips

Sending a lot of hugs and prayers your way towards a speedy recovery, Tara. With your positive attitude, you're already half way there, now just be a good girl and rest up so the feet heal fast.

Aparna said... Best Blogger Tips

So sorry to hear about this, Tara! I searched to see what happened when I saw Richas email in the bugs group. I have to catch up with the rest of the psots to see how you feel now, but just wanted to say this right away.

Just like to to see the bright side of things, and you are absolutely right.

Love and hugs and hope you feel better soon.
Aps

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