Sharing some patches from the current quilt of my life!

I feel very distant from W-Way right now. And even more so all of you who read it. R complained the other day of landing here and not finding anything new to read. Truth is there is plenty happening. But I am just feeling very lazy about recording it. There's a small sudden break in the pattern now, and I want to seize this mood to write and fill you guys in on things.

Firstly, did I tell you that spring is already here upon us? A whole 6 weeks earlier than every other year I have seen while I have been here. It feels almost like stealing. That's how I looked at it those first few days unable to believe and even savour that it could get so warm, so soon. When I say warm, I mean the 50's and 60's, which is a far cry from this sudden cold freeze of today. Blowing winds, wet rains, and some snow on top of that. Its like Mother Nature is confused what mix to bring on next.

Okay, so now that the weather trivia is out of the way, let me get into the more personal stuff. We are going to India this summer. Me and the boys will be there for June and July and R will join us. But the true highlight of it all is a 10-day interlude right in the middle of our vacation. Even now it is surreal to contemplate, but for the first 2 weeks of July, we shall 'finally' be spending time in Puttaparthi. There is a National Pilgrimage happening from the US this year, and after all my yearning from last year, we will, Godwilling, finally be a part of it. I had many trepidations about how I would cope on this with the boys in tow, and the blazing summer heat and the crowds at Parthi and the early rising and the long, full days, but after a point, the thoughts have ended, and there is just a quiet peace and surrender. It will be truly easier to do it without the boys, but the true pilgrimage is when we do it all together.

My ex-fractured leg had been bothering me for a long time even into the recovery process. And all that silent worry pooled inside festering into despair, that erupted in all the little and big ways. At this point, I'd like to digress and say....I can't for the life of me understand, why we take so long to help ourselves, when we have diagnosed a problem!! Anyways, long story short, the gym thing is finally beginning to help my cause. The stiffness that I couldn't get rid off, is flexing it way out of my muscles slowly, and every step that I take which is pain-free, I celebrate inside me.

One big sweet sunshine of my life right now is bhajans. I can't get enough of them, singing them, hearing them, learning more, listening more, and the boys are falling into that right with me. They now have special requests from me, when we are driving, and the rate at which they are picking it up is amazing. And the Universe has once again fulfilled me soul deep urge to have more time at bhajan, by the forming of a Tuesday Satsang group, where a group of us women who share this love of devotional singing can gather together and do just that to our heart's content. Life seriously doesn't get any better than this!!

Okay, here's something I want to share, but I am still hesitant to. For what if its not something I see through fully?? I know I know...very cryptic, but suffice it to say that for the next 5 days, I want to undertake something that will break through some very self imposed barriers on my psyche. And if you want to hear more about it, it will only be at the conclusion and you will have to pray intensely for me to succeed, in whatever it is that I am alluding to.

There is more. Much more. But I will now pace it out over the coming posts. I want to be back to writing consistently again, and hearing your voices will be a good motivation for me. So start shouting! :)

To be continued...