Winter love

I think Winter Break is one of the nicest school holidays there is. Its just sooo... nice to spend some relaxed times with the boys. I really feel like I have earned this time with them, and them with me. The days have been idyllic. A little bit of busyness, a little bit of laidback-ness, painting, reading, wii-ing, eating cheetos just before lunch, staying in PJ's, crayon-ning the glass of the windows, imagining spring, sitting down to a full spread lunch every day at the table....sigh, everything has been so relaxing...and therapeutic. And I don't want it to end anytime soon. I thought 15 days would stretch before me in this nice long winded way, but already there's just 5 days left. Where do these moments go, and why so fast?

I started off really not liking winter this time, and almost ended up going into depression over the sun deficit. Its taken me all of December to finally come to terms to give my love to it, and finally receive the love it has always given, and continues to give. I really do love winter. Because its the only way I would love my spring, with that exquisite rapture that I do every year. And its the only way I would breathe in every moment of my summer, knowing that each day gone is one day less of it. I love winter because it puts me in that exact spot of overflowing gratitude for all the cycle of the seasons that follow.


But sometimes....sometimes, when the snow is slow to melt, and the clouds huddle so close together, that it is hard to believe a Sun is out there somewhere, when the bloom of the flowers and the smell of the grass is still a distant dream...it is okay to cheat a little and imagine your way to that happiness. If only for a split second, that spring actually blossoms in your heart, before you go back to being to faithful to winter once again.

[For parents out there, Crayola's glass crayons are a fantastic addition to the Art Center, and a very promising investment. And easy to wipe off and redo, all over again. Go for it!]