Sunday, January 01, 2012
1. The thing I have learnt the most this year, is that it is okay to be myself. Even if all I am feeling is quiet, distanced and lost to my own world, its okay to be like that. People will eventually get used to it. Its okay to cut those ties of expectations that bind you to them, and be free on both sides. For maybe then, a more real relationship can blossom.
2. Children like to be liked. They like to be looked at. They like to be heard. They like an answer to their questions. And the more patient a reply, the better.
3. That when you really like them, and look at them, and hear them, and answer them, you get a very rare, precious look inside to their soul and what makes them tick. It is information you can use to soften all the edges of your own heart, when it hardens in rage and frustration.
4. The fewer words you use, and the lesser explaining you do in a conversation, the better it is. It shows that you come from a place of confidence, where not everything has to be justified and explained and understood with a perspective.
5. Whatever I see, whatever I label outside, is but a reflection of what already lies within me. And no wonder I was able to recognize it and label it in the first place. How can I not, when I have such an intimate knowledge of it?
6. That art is a therapy that belies understanding. And that a family that paints together, can actually make it....as a family.
7. That Thambi is a man inside a boy, and a baby at the end of the day. He talks beyond his years sometimes, with such a clarified understanding of things. He advises me no end, and especially when I play Wii tennis, but when its time for bed, he still needs a warm adult body next to him. I must learn to enjoy that more this year.
8. That Winkie, holds everything tightly within. That he doesn't use his freedom of expression that very much. That he could, more. But in all that quietness, there is such a wealth of restraint in him, with regard to things of this world. He can handle himself with such grace and poise in a crowd, that oftentimes, he gets lost in it. He loves a sense of conformity to things....and any deviance from that is what frustrates him. Now we all know what life will do with that! :)
9. That I still love my coffee in the morning. I have tried different ways to let go, to stop, to cut the bonds. But it will not have it. I am tied to my one cup. And its time I made peace.
10. That New Years' is not a time for resolutions. If there is true resolve, change can happen anytime, anywhere, and even within your heart. And everyday is a testimony to that. So where does that leave New Years then? Its just that time of the year, when you actually feel the length of the life you have lived and wonder in amazement at how fast it all went. Now that is customary!
Wish you ALL a more acute sense of living this coming year. May the transformations happen daily, without the fanfare, but with all sense of fulfilment.
P.S. - # 11 : That you can add any picture and find a symbolism for it, especially when you don't have anything else to show. Such as this one of a sunflower from my summer deck garden. Sunflowers are special in the way they always grow towards the sun. If there is a need for any resolution, then let it be this for me. To always grow towards the light...